This past Friday Alex and I observed Shabbat for the first time in our apartment. Just before sundown, we opened a bottle of Chardonnay (somehow I feel like it's supposed to be red wine, but it was all we had), lit two candles, and shared a thick slice of challah from an enormous Zaro's loaf.
Alex said the prayers one line at a time and I repeated them. It's going to be a long time before I know them by heart. I felt like I was just copying the sounds. Later, when I told this to my friend Robbie, he nodded and joked, "like a Japanese schoolgirl singing Lady Gaga," which I thought was pretty funny.
Still, even though I was a bit lost, I found the experience moving and, in a way, cathartic. There is something very pleasing about the act of lighting candles--watching the flame flicker and the wax melt and dribble down in beads. Somehow you can't help but relax and reflect. As we sipped our wine, I suddenly remembered a bizarre ritual my family had when I was growing up.
While (of course) I would devour anything you put in front of me, my younger brother was a very picky eater. For a while, one of the only ways my parents could get him to finish his dinner was to light a candle and let him blow it out for each bite he took. I remember staring across the table at him, over our bowls of macaroni and cheese, feeling insanely jealous that he got to blow out so many candles--like it was his birthday every single night. I guess it just goes to show that even children understand that there is something satisfying, sacred, and important about striking a match, lighting a wick, and watching the shadows dance across a table.
But enough misty memories. On Saturday, I was confronted with a very real dilemma: what to do with all that challah! I decided to make giant, buttery croutons for one of my favorite dishes: chilled pea soup with mint. The recipe, which is a tweaked version of Ina Garten's, is incredibly easy and filled with all the verdant flavors of summer. Pair it with a tomato and mozzarella salad and you can't go wrong. (Recipe after the jump.)